Okay. I have been dealing with all kinds of crap for the past two weeks which has rendered me unable to work out and eat the way I want to. I have also been dealing with a lot of negative feelings about myself. Let's face it: I am completely depressed over how much weight I have gained. I have been thinking a lot about what I could change and do differently. What could have gone wrong over the past year that has caused such an enormous, depressing change in my size?! I have tried so many things--I gave up dairy, I gave up meat, I gave up sugar, I started killing my knees by running etc., etc., etc. Nothing has worked. I just keep getting bigger and bigger and more and more depressed. At the beginning of the year I had said I was going to start weighing myself weekly and see where it went. Well after a few weeks of that I just about threw the freaking scale across the room. And I am so not kidding. Way too depressing.
Here is my new plan. Back to Body For Life. I am going HARD CORE on BFL. I think that possibly one explanation for my weight gain has been a gradual, unintentional increase in portion sizes. I have done Body For Life twice (after 2 pregnancies) and it worked each time. So, I am going to do it again--perfectly. If, after 12 weeks, I have not lost a significant amount of weight I will find a doctor and they will figure out what is wrong with me.
On that note--today I did great! I am still not feeling well (it's getting old), but I went ahead with my plan.
I did 30 minutes on the elliptical before breakfast, which was two slices of french toast on whole wheat bread with some peanut butter and banana. No picture, sorry!
I ate breakfast late, so instead of a snack, I just had lunch. I recently (while sick and unable to eat much of anything) discovered this delicious soup--
So I even measured my portions and had one cup of soup as my veggie serving, five crackers and some grapes as my carb and a piece of light string cheese as my protein. For fun I calculated my whole lunch was a mere 250 calories.
Afternoon snack was whole wheat toast with peanut butter, bananas and a drizzle of local honey. Yum.
Dinner today was egg salad sandwiches. I had mine open faced on homemade whole wheat bread with lots of added veggies--celery, lettuce, tomatoes, purple onions and sprouts. I did have one more small slice of bread plain because I wanted to taste it. I added ground millet and quinoa along with the wheat flour, so I wanted to see if it tasted any different. It was good.
Tonight I did an upper body workout and I have been making a conscious effort to chug water like a crazy person. For the time being I'm off DC again.
So, back to the basics. Wish me luck. I really need this to work.